Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Why I do it

I'm floored by the responses to my story being featured on the Breast Cancer Site and through their Facebook page.  My video now has over 14,000 views!  And my blog hits are around a 1,000 a day!

People are so full of kindness, love and support.  I can't tell you what it means to me to be surrounded by such wonderful people that know the meaning of empathy, and that help champion this fight against cancer and my fight to get my kids back home.

I was talking with someone yesterday about my blog, and he was explaining that it helped his mother make informed decisions after her recent diagnosis with breast cancer.  And I said, "That's why I do it".

When I was diagnosed with cancer, I was the first person my age, or in my group of friends, that had gotten it.  Most of my fear was because I didn't know what to expect.  My only experience with breast cancer was seeing the Race for the Cure women wearing pink and raising money for Susan G Komen.  And I thought, "Okay, I wear pink, I run in a race, and I'm cured".  But as we all know, that's not the reality.

I have shared my story very openly for a couple reasons.  First, it's very surreal to go through this fight.  I see what's happening around me, and I feel the feelings, but it still doesn't feel real.  Even now, looking back at photos and reading my posts, it doesn't feel like it happened to me.  So it's a great way to remember and document my experience.

Second, I share my experiences, good, bad and ugly, because I want other people to know what happens when you get diagnosed with breast cancer.  It's not about wearing a pink ribbon. And it's not all about death.   It's about a genuine fight to get through each day.

There are going to be days you will wish you were dead.  There will be days that it's just a relief to be able to blink without pain.  And then there are days when you feel like you can do anything.  The pride and feeling of accomplishment that resilience brings is one of the best feelings in the world.  I never knew what I was capable of doing.  I never knew how strong I was.

My story is my own.  Everyone has their own version of life and their struggle.  I choose to share mine with the world because it's makes me feel like I'm connected.  It makes me feel like you all fight with me.  And in turn, you get to see the world from my perspective.  

Sharing your stories with me moves me.  And it makes me feel like maybe my pain and my struggle were for a greater purpose.  We're all on this path of recovery together.  And from the bottom of my heart, thank you for being a part of it with me.  

1 comment:

  1. I'm a breast cancer survivor. The video brought me to tears.The photos a reminder of how hard this past 15 months have been. You're a very beautiful courageous woman. Congrats on taking down stage IIII. Only those that have been there can understand. Wish you the best. God bless